It’s 2am and I’m writing this instead of finishing a paper or going to sleep.
I really don’t know what’s wrong with me. When I should have been finishing my last paper of the semester I was writing code for a web page I have been working on in my free time. I wish I could find that magic bullet that would allow me to take the passion and drive I have for programming and instantly redirect that energy into other areas of my life. Plus my sleep schedule doesn’t help. I generally sleep till 8 or 9am and then stay up till 1-2am. Only problem with that is when you have class or a job that wants you there at 8.
Basically there just are not enough hours in the day to get all the things done I have and my brain has shut down from overload. The only time I get to slow down and truly process everything from my week is when I’m asleep. Having mental overload can make for some very interesting dreams. I would slow down but unfortunately I have to work in order to pay bills and for school.
Well it can’t last forever. That’s about all that is pulling me through right now. Things will change. They always do, I just don’t know when.
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How has seminary affected my faith and beliefs
A friend of mine presented me with this question last week and I put off answering. One reason is that I procrastinate but the other reason was that I have actually been dealing with a lot of things lately and that question was very timely. So in no particular order, here are some insights into seminary.
Seminary brings things into focus. When I worked in the business and education sectors, it was easy to compartmentalize my life. Sunday and Wednesday nights I went to church and the rest of the week I worked or played. I knew that God had called me to more than just to sitting on a pew. For that matter, He has called everyone of us to more than just that. However, in seminary the spiritual is always there. My professors read the Bible and pray in class. Coming from a public university, that seemed odd at first. Also during my first two semesters, I had to attend chapel three days a week. So I was bombarded with the Word of God.
My evangelism class has forced me to realize that the Gospel I believe is lacking from what is in scripture. I shy away from thinking about let alone talking about Hell and I forget about the resurrection which gives the Gospel its power. The death of Christ is wonderful but without the resurrection, Christ would just be another martyr. I am made aware daily of the people I come across in my daily routines. How many of these has God placed in my path to share the Gospel with and I simply walk around them to my next destination.
There appears to be this subconscious elevation of seminary students. I have been in small groups where it feels as though people are looking to me for the answers simply because I attend seminary. I read scripture and see the standard that Christ gives for those in leadership and I feel wholly inadequate. There are days that I question why someone would choose to put me in leadership.
Ultimately, seminary has shown me where I place my faith. All these things that I have struggled with and studied should drive me to my knees. However, I find myself trying to numb these feelings with work or entertainment. But as God has made clear even just this semester, He will not allow me to stay there. I continually reach the point where even work and entertainment are not satisfying and it drives me to the Lord.
I think I saw Noah float by Friday night
We had some serious storms move through the Fort Worth area Friday night. It first occurred to me that it was getting bad when the water was up to the curb and I could not read the street numbers. I hit a few spots of water and shot sprays of water into the air but nothing too uncommon. I got back to the store and noticed that the roof was leaking in various areas. The cooks were trying to make pizzas while standing in puddles of water and waterlogged cardboard.
I got my next order and proceeded south. At this point, I noticed that the water was higher than what I had already driven through. I passed a car that had stalled out in the water. The water was probably about 2 feet deep and about half way through I wondered if this was such a good idea. I made it through unscathed and ventured on my way. It was not long before I came across another section of road that had now become a small river.
There were cars stalled in the middle going in both directions. There was not a danger of my being swept off the road so I journeyed on. This was not a small creek, this was a river. It was probably coming up to the doors on my truck. As I proceeded around a stall car, I ended up running up on the curb. Also about this time, a wave swept over the hood of truck and I could sense my truck did not appreciate my reckless behavior.
I continued on and made it out no worse for wear. However, on my return trip, I took the high road and made it back without any more problems. Upon my return, I learned that we were no longer accepting any new deliveries. I stayed around for another hour and a half taking orders that had been taken two hours before. I finally got home about 10pm Friday night.
